Newbie's get a pass for a few hours.

Then again, these guys beat me up all the time!
The squeezer should not "collapse", you should be able to control the squeeze all the way though the stroke.
You might want to hang around an EAA chapter for a while and see of there are guys working on planes that can watch over their shoulder. It is daunting to try and pick up a skill by picking up the tool and trying it without having had some instruction.